Just stay

 “We learn that our slow change into Christ likeness is not a sprint but an endurance race. And because it’s a marathon instead of a 100 yard dash, we’re all tempted to grow weary and faint hearted.” (Comforts from the Cross by Elyse Fitzpatrick, p. 48)

It’s possible to change. It’s possible that my rough edges soften and my run-away thoughts become clear and focused. It’s possible that my inability to love becomes my greatest joy. It’s possible that my wild impatient outbursts become quiet, gentle breezes. It’s possible that my worries become thoughts of confidence and my words of harshness become words of praise.

The harder I try to take on any of this change myself, in my own strength, the harder it becomes. So why resist and why fight it?  It’s easier just to quit and return to my old comforts, habits.  I choose not to because I am willing and see my need for grace. Not a little, but desperately.  I see His face and I reach for Him and I hold on to Him and stay in His presence. Looking and gazing up at Him in those very moments keeps me from going back.  My focus has to be ONLY Jesus or my mind wanders and I grow weary.  I remember it’s a battle, so I speak His truths, sing praises, pray, ask for prayer and refuse to return to my old ways.

I love this quote that points to the hope of lasting change. ( Cause this girl needs it. J) “The gospel teaches us that instead of focusing on ourselves and our closely clinging sin, we’ve got to focus on, consider, Jesus…. We must patiently focus all our attention on Him…..Our thoughts should be steadfastly riveted on what Jesus has done. He began our faith ( or we wouldn’t have it), and He’s committed to bring it all the way to completion.” ( p 49 )

This endurance race  takes time. I wish it was faster, but I’m learning to love the process.  I’m learning to love My Heaveny Father more and more. I am thankful for this journey of faith!

Lord, how do I stay?

With Me.

You are mine and I faced the cross for you so you could stay with Me.

Look to Me. Focus on Me. Run this race with Me.

So stay.

Just. stay.