It’s a common thing for Miriam to wake up early. Most of the time I can handle it, but today I just felt hopeless. I end up resorting to anger and impatience. I was frustrated because I didn’t know what she wanted. She just wanted me and the truth is, I didn’t want her, I just wanted sleep. But once I finally settled her down ( an hour later! ) I was on my way back to bed and knew what I needed. I needed to pray and spend time in the Word. God opened my eyes to so many wonderful things and as I read, I was thanking Him for Miriam and her early cries (didn’t I just write about this not too long ago???) I was remembering the cry of my heart to the Lord years ago when we were told we wouldn’t be able to have children that I would do anything to hear the cries of a little one in the night! He had turned my mourning into joy! This thought brought me to think of and pray for those who have that same cry as I did--to be a mom. To have that ministry. God was able to peel away my anger this morning and rekindle the love for the joy of the cries of my little one and reminded me that I can’t throw away my confidence in Him as I can do so quickly, especially when I am so tired.
This morning I read something of encouragement as I was reminded of my ministry of wife and Mom. How quick do I forget that God is in control and doing the growing in each heart in the appropriate way. Not the way I think growth should look, but in His perfect, supreme way. Paul is writing this passage in 1 Corinthians 3:6-10
6I planted the seed, Apollos watered it, but God made it grow. 7So neither he who plants nor he who waters is anything, but only God, who makes things grow. 8The man who plants and the man who waters have one purpose, and each will be rewarded according to his own labor. 9For we are God's fellow workers; you are God's field, God's building.
10By the grace God has given me, I laid a foundation as an expert builder, and someone else is building on it. But each one should be careful how he builds.
The Lord is growing us all. It’s a daily process of trust and obedience towards Him. I certainly play a huge part in watering and shining forth Gods love, bringing the message of salvation to my children and whoever else He places in my life to hear it. I have not arrived yet. I can endure anything with patience and courage because my confidence is that eternity is in me now and my goal is to please Him in all that He brings my way. Yes, even at 5:15 in the morning.
6Therefore we are always confident and know that as long as we are at home in the body we are away from the Lord. 7We live by faith, not by sight. 8We are confident, I say, and would prefer to be away from the body and at home with the Lord. 9So we make it our goal to please him, whether we are at home in the body or away from it.
Thank You Lord for allowing me to have an “open hand” and not “a clenched fist” as I was on my way to do this new day. Do what pleases you the most in this vessel of Yours. You’ve won. I surrender!
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