It's been that kind of week where one foot in front of the other is all I can do to keep at it. Sick kids. Sick mom. Husband away. Whiny, needy ones who just cry at the drop of a hat. Sleepless nights. Cereal for breakfast, lunch and dinner. Lollipops and popscicles eaten before dinner, or... gasp, for dinner. I've even hidden myself in the laundry room a few times just for some sanity. I've cried and cried. Yet, there is joy. The joy of the Lord in my heart.
I'm weary.
But, I am abiding in My Vine. I am walking these days out with Him. I am hanging on tight to His hand. I am following His promptings. I am comforted by His love. I have even been able to look compassionately into the faces of these sweet girls and smile while screaming loudly inside. and yes, I have also yelled outloud; I won't lie. But I've got joy.
I'm attaching myself to Him. And He won't let go of me.
He has given me His rest. I've witnessed His amazing grace this week in a way that brings Him the glory for it all.
"Come, follow me," Jesus said, "and I will make you fishers of men. "At once they left their nets and followed Him. Matthew 4:19-20
I asked the Lord to help me leave "my net" ( my world, my comfort zone, my ways of always dealing with the circumstances around me) and follow Him, do it His way... and to keep me moving forward, not going back to my old ways. And He reminds me that as long as I am abiding in Him, He will keep me moving forward with Him.....
Smack dab in the middle of the chaos, there is joy.
Lord, I will follow You. Take me and lead me. I've got my eyes on You.
John 15:5 I am the vine; you are the branches. Whoever abides in me and I in him, he it is that bears much fruit, for apart from me you can do nothing.
John 15:9-11 As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Abide in my love. If you keep my commandments, you will abide in my love, just as I have kept my Father’s commandments and abide in his love. These things I have spoken to you, that my joy may be in you, and that your joy may be full.
I've got the joy, joy, joy, joy down in my heart.
3 comments:
thanks for posting this. Sometimes I feel awkward because I think I am the only mom in the world that has times like the ones you described here. Your honesty is a testament of His grace, so that blesses me. I have been very guilty of stealing a few laundry room moments myself to help me clear my mind. God Bless you this week.
Amen to Monica's comment! Although, I don't have a laundry room. ;) I have to lock myself in the bathroom! ;) I love you and miss you, Kelly. I'm always so blessed by your spirit. (P.S. We've been so sick, too... must be going around Alamo. :()
Lindsay
Hey Kelly! Just read this....it was neat about the abiding as that is what the Lord keeps driving me to read. I have been hanging out in John 15 :).
Also thank you for giving encouragement and prayers for others that are weary when you are too!
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